Before I start, I know this post is a little different from the ones I usually write. It’s a little more personal. But that’s why I like this little corner. If you’re a parent, soon to be a parent, trying to become one, or just curious to know a little more about this season of life, maybe this one is for you. And if it’s not, that’s okay too.
A small trigger warning: this post talks about pregnancy, birth fears, and the emotional side of becoming a parent. If this is something sensitive for you right now, or if you’re not in the mental space for it, please feel free to skip this one and come back another time. Take care of yourself first always 🤍
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I’m pregnant! I’m in my third trimester now, which still feels surreal to say out loud.
Sometimes I look in the mirror, feel a kick, and think… wow. There is really a whole little person in there. A person I haven’t met yet, but already love and think about all the time.
Being pregnant for the first time has changed my mind in ways I didn’t expect. Everyone talks about the body changing, but not enough people talk about how much your inner world changes too. The things I care about feel different now.
I’ve noticed lately that my relationship with my body has been changing. I find myself feeling more grateful for it in a way I didn’t expect. Things that used to feel like insecurities don’t really carry the same weight anymore. Because my body is doing something so much bigger right now. It’s creating life. Building bones, organs, everything from scratch. And when I really think about that… how incredible is that?
It’s like your priorities quietly rearrange themselves. Little things that used to feel urgent don’t feel as important anymore. Things I used to stress over now seem so small. And simple things suddenly matter so much more. Feeling calm. Feeling safe. Time with people I love. Health. Rest. Real support.
A lot of things have been changing, but one thing I didn’t expect to change so much is the mood swings.
Some days I feel so emotional for no reason. I can cry because I’m overwhelmed, because I’m grateful, because I saw a tiny baby sock, because I saw a birth video, because someone was kind to me, because I’m tired. Sometimes all in the same day. Other days, I feel strong and calm and ready. And then there are days I feel scared.
Because now I’m in that stage where everything feels sooo close. This baby is really coming. Life is really about to change. There’s no “someday” anymore. It’s soon. Like really soon.
And that feeling is a mix of excitement and fear.
I am so excited to meet this baby. To know their face. To learn who they are. To hold them in my arms after all these months of imagining them.
But I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t scared too.
Scared of birth. Scared of the unknown. Scared of how life will look after. Scared of such a huge responsibility. Scared of losing parts of myself. Scared of loving something this deeply.
And I think that’s normal. How could it not be?
Everything about this is new. My body is doing something it has never done before. My heart is preparing for someone it has never met before. My whole life is about to change.
Of course it feels big. Of course it feels emotional. Of course it feels messy and beautiful and overwhelming all at once.
And as excited as I am to meet this baby, I already know I’m going to miss this version of us too. The little kicks in my belly. The moments where it’s just me and them, connected in this strange and beautiful hidden way. Feeling movement when I lie down at night. Resting my hand there and waiting for a little nudge back. I know I’ll be so happy to have my baby in my arms. But I also know I’ll miss carrying them with me everywhere like this.
Time also feels strange lately. Some days feel long, but the weeks are flying. I keep thinking I still have time, and then I realize how close it all is now.
Soon, life will be before and after. That thought makes me emotional in ways I can’t fully explain.
I don’t have a perfect conclusion yet. I’m still in it. Still learning. Still feeling everything as it comes.
But I do know this: becoming a mother already starts before the baby arrives. It starts in the waiting. In the shifting. In the worrying. In the loving someone before you even know them.
And if you’re reading this as a mum, or soon-to-be mum I’d really love to hear from you. Tell me what this season felt like for you. What surprised you, what scared you, what you wish someone had told you.
If you’d like, I can keep sharing little updates from this pregnancy and soon-to-be motherhood journey too. If you have any questions, or if there’s anything specific around this journey you’d like me to write about, please feel free to tell me in the comments or message me privately on Instagram (@21daysapp) or by email ([email protected]). I’d really love to hear what you’d like me to share more about.
I’d love for this to be a little corner where we can talk honestly about it all. 🤍